super shag week..

wah...

this week is really super shag, although is only tues now, but i'm feeling super tired already..

Starting from sunday..

waking up at about 9 plus 10, after service follow by skating..

Thank God that chris sent us to MRT station, if not i sure faint..

Made a few new friends during skating.. mainly from N374 la.... Princess Chloe, Xu Bin *new mummy*, Ben *old fren but new daddy*, Faith, Rod, Paul and GF, Chris.. HAHA..

I really wanna thank BEN and XU BIN to teach me with lots of patient.. Always encouraging me, making sure my safety, very very take care of me.... ok la.. ur rewards are: 1) a FLYING LOVE kiss. 2) the almond cookies. 3) tapiocal chips.. 4) chewing gum.. HAHA.. enough? not enough can ask somemore.. LOL..

also wanna thank chris for teaching me how to go up and down slope. and sending us from ECP to Bugis MRT station..* btw, it was a smooth and stable journey because some drivers really drives like shit la... but he was good. LOL* ..haha.. THANK GOD, i manage to go up the slope without falling down.. and successfully conquered the uphill.. but...... downhill ar.. paiseh man.. i fell flat to the floor... =( nevermind... the next time i am going to conquer the down slope after what he had taught and told me!! =)

And I slept at 1am ++.. and woke up at 6am on MONDAY automatically.. den yesterday got training, slept at 1++ am again.. hai.. SUPER SHAG and tired..

ok la.. Understnading Test (UT) coming soon.. LOL.. *sleepy*

UT week for this and next!! NO OUTING for me! =)

a freed up fri yet not so freed..

today is friday!! TGIF!!! =)=)=)

well.. i am supposed to be in school at this time but...

guess what...

I PON-ED!! *heee*

so what am i doing during the last few hours??

woke up at 8/9 plus..

do up some work.. *basically school work la..* and facebooking..

just to share some things here..

Yesterday was really a down and low pit of my life and some others ba..

I was feeling so sad in the morning when someone message me telling something of what someone had said.. that really makes me sad too.. *i am sad for you too.* and at night, this other friend was like msn-ing me telling about his sadness.. AIYO!!

And the worse was like u know...

I WAS VERY SAD MYSELF TOO!!!

with school work pilling up, tests coming in a fews' time, CG members' life, my volleyball IG, diet plans, finances*how to spend it wisely*, etc.. and the list goes on and on......

and this morning, one of my beloved cgm msg me say she's very LOW.. OMG..

isn't this spiritual warfare??????????????????????????????

and just this monrning also, when i was in my room, i scream... not so loud la.. if i scream sure gone case de lo..

I was thinking about something that bothers me so much and so long.. it been 8 months.. I WANT TO STOP.. seriously man.. I feel like i am better la.. just need somemore time.. I just need to treat this person normally and as if nothing has happen and i dunno this person.. A TOTALLY STRANGER!! =)=)=)

I AM NOT GOING TO BE AFFECTED BY YOU!!!!!!!!!!! =)

channel of venting..

I think not much people actually read my blog la... BUT... to be save.. i shall be blogging carefully, using the correct word..

ok la..

I wanted to share what is really from my heart here..

That's why my title of this blog is channel of venting... I want to rant all those things out of my heart before i get heart attacks..

last week was quite a hectic week for me.. BUT.. having not going to sch for 2 days is irritating and i'm feeling remoseful and regretted...

last sat and sun went to inline skating.. yes.. a new sport that i embrace with love to play.. It really helps me to sweat ALOT ALOT and ALOT.. each time i go ECP, i will come back with my shirt and shorts TOTALLY WET!! that sounds gross and i stink like mad man.. is a very good exercise.. and here monday comes...........

I still went to school somehow cause i dun wan to miss sch too much.. imagine, sat slept like 5 hours, sun slept 5 hours plus and mon, woke up at 645. School from 8.30am till 5.15pm. After that still go AMK sec for training till 9 plus.. reach home 10 plus, slept at 12 plus 1.. I totally went knocked off today man.. I didnt even go school.. and is another REGRET... hai..

Today i sent an sms out to change the angel and mortal thing.. hai.. seriously.. i think is not easy to be an organizer/ planner la.. At 1st i was quite relunctant to change la. BUT i think i should change for some people's sake.. HAI.. ok la.. C'mon people.. is just a game..

Seriously man.. i think that the generation last time and now have really a tremandous change and is so different lei.. WHY ar?? just because we are not harsh on u? or we are just to nice and kind to u??

ok la.. small thing.. so no need to be so irritated/ pek cek about..

Also.. seriously.. my semester didnt started well la.. With the first 3 days is TRIPLE science.. It is totally not easy somemore i'm not very clever that kind lei.. Honestly.. i'm struggling with a big time la...

I need encouragements too... I need love too... I need fresh renewal of mind too.. I need new oil too... I need to be more open too... I need to learn how to be slow to angry too...

There are so many things that I need to renew and learn too..

Life is a NEVER ending learning journey... I just need to continue to learn and learn..

Just only xiuwen said that recently, I'm easily angry... YES... I admit.. But.. I also dunno why.. PERHAPS... with the amount of work that is pilling.. just to say SCHOOL WORK.. is crazy la.. and the CE talk is crazy la..

imagine every week... is like a routine...

MONDAY: school -> training, sometimes in between got CE talk..
TUESDAY: school, sometimes CE talk, sometimes meeting at night (very seldom la..)
WEDNESDAY: school, sometimes CE talk.. going to go bible study soon...
THURSDAY: school -> training -> CG (provided training is earlier..)
FRIDAY: school, sometimes got CE talk.
SATURDAY: sometimes ECP, sometimes REST! =)
SUNDAY: Bible study -> service -> R&R...

I think i just need to know how to prioritize my time and plan my day properly...

Everyday also need to do RJ and Evaluation and Quiz.. Like siao char bor..

And...

I've got lots of hurts and pains here and there..

from head to toe..

let me list down....

sometimes headache... shoulder muscle ache... sometimes chest/heart pain due to coughing too much... coughing.. stomach problem from young... butt pain due to the great fall during skating... knee just got a blue black from yesterday's training. sometimes back bone pain that cuases me hard to walk.. HAI..

I cant understand i exercise so much and why i still kanna so many sickness.. I guess I just need more healthy diet of eating habit.. =)

ok la..

enough of ranting.. the more i rant, the more i feel like an old hag..

BUT... I really want to thank GOD that i dun have BGR problem.. I guess GOD knows that i'm not ready for it ba.. ANYWAY.. i'm not in a hurry to find 1 too... =)

signing off...

4th OCt -8th Oct 09

This is a week of afresh.

Many things happened starting from Sunday.

I was being BOLD in a sense but also get myself paiseh in a sense. well..

this thing had passed and time to move on, however, this is the 1st and last time man.

It was a 'good' experience man.. HAHA... with the ‘当事人’ there looking at what is happening.. HAHAHA.. *paiseh* (and i'm not going to blog about how i honestly feel about this incident..)

ok la...

is over and i shall get this over and move on to other things..

oh..

I have just started my 2nd semester in school. it was a bad start la.. everything was so chaotic.

I struggled for so long man.. and on the 1st day, i sent a change course email to the help registrar and it gave a reply that the application is over, please wait for end of sem 2. LOL...

ok la.. i'm sleepy in class now.. blog again..

anyway....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASON NG!! =)

cg forefeit...

Updates....

HAHA..

have been feeling lazy to blog..

since today i'm pretty free and my initial plan was wanna go singtel but decided to go another time.. HAHA..

super tired man..

yesterday we had a good time for our very 1st KT zone prayer meeting.. i believe not long after, it'll be our very own 1st XW zone prayer meeting.. =)

It was very different from the previous Overnight Prayer Meeting (OPM) that I had been before..

As usual.. 3 sessions. BUT.. it is not about all time praying and praying.. but we came together and share the goodness of GOD..

1st session was more in teaching.. 1st half an hour was praying in the spirit and so easily and unexpectantly, a word was being put forth in my heart.. * Come back to the 1st LOVE that u have for ME.. *

YES!!

many of the times... we are so tired being a Christian.. in midst of our busy life, be it working or studying or serving the LORD *FULL TIME*.. we tend to get drained out and burned out very easily and very much, we feel like giving up.. telling ourselves that *IT IS SO DIFFICULT... I CANT HANDLE IT ANYMORE!!!!* but to think of it.. ultimately.. WHO are u doing this FOR?? and WHY are u doing this??

As I begin to think of it.. many of the times I felt so dry on the inside.. I may not show it on the outside but deep down.. I'm just another human being.. will go thru times of trials and tribulations, go thru UPs and DOWNs... so i believe this word is just a word of encouragement to me.. =)

ok la... overall... I love this kind of OPM, it very family, close to each other.... =)

anyway..

last SAT was my 21st birthday.. u can find photos in my facebook.. thanks.. =)

i surrender all..

THANK YOU FOR THE CROSS THAT YOU HAVE PAID
FOR ALL MY SINS YOU'VE SACRIFICED YOURSELF
I AM NOTHING LORD WITHOUT YOUR GRACE
YOU WERE THERE TO LIFT ME WHEN I FAILED

AS I LIFT MY HANDS
POUR YOUR MERCY O GOD
I'M LONGING FOR YOUR PRESENCE NOW
AS I LIFT MY HANDS
POUR YOUR MERCY O GOD
I'M LONGING FOR YOUR PRESENCE NOW

I SURRENDER ALL AND I WILL FOLLOW YOU
I SURRENDER ALL AND BRING MY LIFE TO YOU
I SURRENDER ALL AND LIVE MY LIFE FOR YOU
I SURRENDER ALL, I SURRENDER ALL
(TO YOU JESUS)

this song really reminds me of how i should surrender all to HIM.. and the songs says that YOU WERE THERE TO LIFT ME WHEN I FAIL( this is very true, how gracious and loving is our FATHER!) =D

really love this song, hope to sing in cg soon and thank you Sidney for writting this song! =D